Hi,Yeah that's maybe total insanity. Um, ok protect, be ok, no needing to know nothing, but yeah, the whole idea was nice.
It's a nicer idea than most all of the other ones that weren't likeminded. Please. I'm gonna be ok with this.
I think it's okay to be interested in the same drive away from banality and poverty, it's okay to relate to a person from the burbs who hated the boringness and stupidity of everything not going on, and to see that get into such a band, and make everyone a little more intelligent about being something nice to look at, listen to and think about - without being 'snotty' about it, just in my mind maybe.
I'm really kind of afraid to listen to music. Sometimes great expressions of freedom aren't anything but a trap for me. Selfishness is worthwhile, but not possible for me in any ways like those.
I'm writing a book about it all. Even now I wish I could simply write very compelling fantasy without dealing with the autobio stuff (almost like doing a jonathan 'peel'). That's what the deal is it's crust - really expensive crust, like that crap you have to see when you hear the Gone With the Wind music, low rolling landscapes of black brooches glinting in the red light, grinding together like revolving faceted dunes or something - crusty, low, nothing I have to reduce the attraction.