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grumpy
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posted 08-30-2000 12:49 AM
    
i swear
wtf is going on here?
i mean the stuff with rvendell and his woman.
and now
jus last week, some of my close friends got into a car accident. oen broke her ankle, blah, another sprained somethign, bla bla, but one of uhmm fractured her skull and has damage to her brain and is in critical condition. not a bla. fuggin ehh.
and now, i just heard, another one of my close friends passed away in a car accident. she's actually like a crush i had back in the day too. we liked each other a lot and stuff. adn we hung out. and fucking ehh. i was jus readin all of my old letteres i found in this box a week ago. and like, i found this one i never gave her, because she gave me a letter saying she liked me and shit, and i wrote her that i liked her too but i never sent it. fuck! a;okf ja;lkf ja'sdjf
fuck yoU!
AND SHIT, . i never wanted to live my fucking life sayign wut if. and shit. now wut i shoulda told her right/ right/ now i'm living my life sliek shit. not living it out the way it should be. holding back feelings and shitl i imean, it was a few years ago, but i'm feeling the guilt. the fucking burden. fucking this world!! this is bull shit! fucking bull shit
bull shit buls shit shlskb shit fuck busll hist!
a;ldkfj a;sdflkufkc you b bitchs fuckls shit sklbul fshitll!
[This message has been edited by grumpy (edited 08-30-2000).]
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PrincessGummy
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posted 08-30-2000 09:32 PM
Grumpy dahlin...
ok...first of all, i'm glad to see that you expressed your feelings so well here instead of doing something stupid in the long run. ok, you can't blame any of this on yourself you had nothing to do with it, and there are always what if questions. Sometimes (this could hurt) but instead of thinking something good could have happened in a "what if" question, be more negative and think it could have been worse...then it is easier not to think about those kind of questioins. i know how you are feeling.
i have had things like this happen in my life...it feels like it is all a dream and none of it should have happend or did happen and sure, it is going to take time before you can tell yourself it was a reality. You might ly awake at night constantly burdening yourself with questions with no answers...i can never sleep..i worry too much, i've been taking like, 5 advils a night to go to sleep!, but, sometimes you have to fight yourself. If you need anything from me, just need someone to talk to anything...here are my contacts: PrincessGummy@chickmail.com AIM: FallingGummy
ICQ: 69005525
Voicemail: 1-800-222-600 ext. estrogummye *hugs*
hope i helped slightly... ------------------
*have some gummy slime*
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grumpy
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posted 09-01-2000 03:26 AM
whoa, princessgummy is a nice person.
and now for some uhmm good news kinda?
katy's funeral is tomorrow. i shall be attending it and giving her the letter i never gave her  http://www.goanacortes.com/html/news_2.html
the girl that got into the car accident with brain problems, is out of her coma now. i didn't even know she was in one. and she had brain surgery, but they don't know the results of it yet. http://www.goanacortes.com/html/news_1.html uhmm the other girl, http://www.goanacortes.com/html/news_7.html i was more friends with her sister who graduated with me. but hell. wtf is going on here?
she's okay though.
her family's like fuggin rich anyhow, and they are gonna give her plastic surgery or something. cause she's pretty hot. and now she's ugly. hahaha i went over to jessica's place tonight. at like 10 at nite heheh. its an hour drive. so i dunno. but well worth it i think. cause she just got back from teh san juans camping. and i told her how i didn't even want to see her die or anything. you know? it was hard. i was feeling kinda depressed about all this other shiz going on.
and she knew i had been crying and stuff on the drive over. omg guys, i havent cried for like 3 years. it was kinda weird.
and we talked. she gave me a big fat hug, and said "i love ya kid" and i was all shocked kinda. but i couldn't look at her. and she started gettin outta the car. and i yanked her back in and gave a big fatty hug around her neck. geez, i swear i was about to bust in tears but i didn't. i kept my eyes open realllllly reallly wide. heheh. and i told her i cared about her. and she just kinda sat there. holding eachother. it was really nice. and like, i didn't realize it but i was like choking her heheh. so i was like sorry. and she didn't care. and gave me a fatty hug. 
i dunno.
we'll see
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